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(no subject) [Apr. 13th, 2006|12:57 am]
I don't know why.
But I want Tyler back.

I hate him.
I can't stand him.
He's like bad music.

But I miss all the things he'd say to me.
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(no subject) [Apr. 8th, 2006|12:05 am]
If my mother just would have walked to the front door, maybe this wouldn't have happened.

I have this thing; It's like a phobia of stupidity, It just puts me in a bad mood. So, when my mother came to pick me up, and when seeing I wasn't on the driveway, she didn't knock, she turned around, went home, called, and came back.
So that, naturally [or unnaturally seeing as my stupidiaphobia isn't technically a natural occurrence]I was a Little bit cocky... Or snappy... Whatever.
Point being, I was upset when I got home.

So, when I was showing my mother what I was going to wear for work, and she told me no, I questioned her decision. Which was a bad idea because the door was open to my parents room, and the noise summoned Satan. Well, so as the story goes, I end up being charged and slammed against the wall.
I have this other weird thing that if I am put down, or challenged, it raises my confidence. Or maybe it's just adrenaline... Whatever the case, I end up somehow thinking that I can take anyone, or anything at that given time.
Thing in this case.
So when he grabbed me by the arm, and I pulled away from his grip, he got mad and said "What are you going to do?"
"Punch you."
"Oh, really?"
I yanked my hand away and started to walk to my door. when my arm was seized again.
"-Says something-"
"-Says something-" And then he grabbed me by the... Throat was it... And threw me to the ground where he pinned me. Out of fucking nowhere, his head gets thrown into the corner of my computer desk. "What in the hell?"
So then there's my mother. Yelling something at him.
And then the parental one-on-one began.
Apparently, I urinate all over my mother on a daily basis. According to Satan, she allows this and intern, I think I am able to urinate all over him, the god of all evil.
And blah blah...
The the kicker happens. My parents have never had a physical fight. I swear to god I remember them having a fight when I was younger

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... But that was the only time I remember them actually physically fighting. My dad has always only physically fought with me.

So yeah.

Here I am, just staring thinking "What an idiot. What a blooming-fucking-idiot. Do you see what you have done?"
At the same though, I don't completely blame myself.

Right now, I need the following necessities:
>>A boyfriend who cares enough about our relationship to
A)Say he doesn't care when I am joking, telling him I don't love him.
B) Not say it's over when I pretend to be married to Ben (Oh come on, yeah, it's totally believable, that I, your girlfriend, who is 14, am married to Ben, and 30 something guy from a band, who lives in Seattle...
>>Some cook- OH MY GOD, I HAVE COOKIES!
>>Allison.
>>A car.
>>A way to get out of this place.

And in case I haven't made a enough of a cunt by being emo enough:

Lord, that I do not believe in, kill me now. If you have any mercy at all... Kill me now.
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(no subject) [Mar. 30th, 2006|07:12 pm]

Alicia Bonura and Ashley Brown
R.I.P

Go here for the story.

Please pray for the West Brook Varsity Soccer team, and keep them in your thoughts.

♥

I didn't know Ashley, but I did know Alicia. She was the president of my church's youth group. I would really appreciate it if you might say a prayer, even though you don't know her.
I also know many of the girls who were injured. Please keep them in your thoughts and prayers also. We still have a girl in critical condition. Doctors say that for her, the next 24 hours are critical.

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(no subject) [Mar. 7th, 2006|11:03 pm]

Friends Only.
Good Luck.

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